The Evil That Men Do…

As you may have noticed, I am playing Destro, more precisely, Chaos Chosen in WAR.

Let the “NOOb! L2P!” and “EMO destro rarwrrr sucks!” screams calm down, and I shall explain.

I am playing computer games for approximately 9-10 years. In the beginning there was no option in games to do something else besides saving the world, princess, your village or generally bashing the EVIL creeps because they had come out of their caves, or pits, or whatever dank, smelly and dark place you can stuff evil away.

I cannot remember correctly which game – it MAY be Warcraft 2 – I started that offered a CHOICE. There I could play Orcs as an alternative to knights and elves and rampage around like Mongol horde, taking everything and killing everyone. Well, the gameplay was not changing by an inch, the map design and missions were exactly the same, but at least I could lead DIFFERENT sprites than the guy next door… And individualism was always something important for me, I was always infuriated when in fighting games somebody else liked MY character, a trend that is still alive in my mindset (bastards stop stealing my colour scheme!!!)  :D Weirdest and most funny thing, all of my gaming friends at those times played with humans and couldn’t fathom being orcs and fighting against good… And I was immediately percieved as enemy, they started to hide cheat codes and gameplay secrets from me and refused to tell me, because I was different. And I knew this feeling pleased me in an obscure way.

Later years came, and I found myself even more different, listening to more and more extreme metal music (although this love started even before my gamer period) and finding pleasure in art that many percieved as bordering on sick or at least ugly. For example, I really thought zergs in Starcraft were beautiful and Kerrigan quite hot.

Another path that later intertwined with previous and led me to Evil, was the philosophical matter. I will not go in depth about my perception of world consisting from shades of grey or good being the reacting and evil the acting force, as this is not time and place for this timeless discussion, but gradually my tabletop and PC RPG characters became more and more eager to follow the Dark path, for I can accept almost any price in my neverending quest for power.

And, as I told in a post some time ago, I found Warhammer and fell in love immediately with setting(s)… And my side of choice was set from the beginning. Nowhere else there exists a more METAL, hungry for power, aesthetically stunning, philosophically convincing force than Warhammer Chaos… So now I have Warhammer 40000 Chaos Marines force, hopefully soon I will start Warriors of Chaos for Fantasy WH…

Then WAR came out. I never faltered about the choice of side. For me, this online game EXISTS so that I can play a virtual representation of me as warrior of my beloved Chaos. No cries of disbalance (whom I believe to be exaggerated) or bonuses offered for smaller Realm, nor disbalanced classes (KotBS) (arguable) will make me change my stand for what I believe.

As for disbalance issues, I already mentioned that I think it to be exaggerated and artificially blown issue (flame me baby), and I do not believe it possible for 4% population disbalance to ruin the game. And stop crying that numbers are incorrect, I play on Karak-Azgal,where order recieved minority bonuses, but in tier 2-3 I see Order zergs (blasphemy!!!!) constantly overwhelming us.

And now, to say something completely egoistic, bad and controversial, if this game, as impossible as it is in my opinion, dies from population disbalance in favor of Destro, then Chaos has won in this instance and my mission completed.

Sorry folks, too much forum reading about doomsday population imbalances and Destro emos. I promise I will try to be nice next time.

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~ by highonchaos on January 13, 2009.